where is my way?

Twelve days' vacation past, we have been working on changing our house twelve days. Today, two wood-workers left. And, there are many other work to do in coming days.

At the begin of vacation, I planed finishing  Advanced Bash-Scripting Guide onceover, but, most of it hasn't been read. There are over 40 chapters in this book, I only have read about 8 chapters.

The big feeling in these days is: where is my way?

My interest thing(hobby) and my work exists huge difference, I can't decide which one should I spend more time or heart. And, the most import thing is: my interest thing(hobby only vast my too many time on it, and can't help me to change our life better a little, but only make my family and my health bad more and more(worse and worse).

I can't decide if I should dicard this interest thing(hobby).

Where is my way?